The one year mark of Anna's brief life has now come and gone. For a year now I have dreaded June 18th, 2008. This past year has been a year of firsts: first Thanksgiving without her, first Christmas without her etc. But amazingly her one year "angelversery" was a peaceful day. Evan and I wanted to celebrate her life, not have that day as a day of mourning. Don't get me wrong, there were plenty of tears; but there was also a peace knowing that she is ok and that she will always be a member of our family, nothing can change that. I have learned so much over this past year. I am a much stronger person, but I am also more compassionate and gentile. I think I appreciate the little things in life more and try not to stress about things that are out of my control. I have learned that there are many grey area's without real answers and the importance of faith to get us through. I know that without prayer and the comfort of my Heavenly Father I would still be in a very dark place. I know that Anna and I agreed to this before we both came down to earth and that is all part of the plan. I also know that life must go one. And I for sure know that when I deliver this baby in the fall I will be so grateful for every cry and dirty diaper because I know that such things are not always a given. I know that there are no guarantees in life and to take every day as a gift. I try to forgive easier and not hold grudges because it takes away the light inside of our us. If I am filled with hate, I feel like I can't feel the spirit and I can't feel my Anna. I am forever a changed person; a better person and I owe it all to my beautiful little daughter Anna. She showed me what pure love really is.